Friend or Foe

So today I was home bored and when I get bored I tend to think about a lot(especially when things aren't going so great). After texting some people and other's hitting me up just to check on me I realized that I have a lot of people in my life who really care for me and have my back. Now there are also some who could care less about me and how I'm doing but tend to pretend they do and play the victim when you stop calling and testing for a while. Not to mention they expect you to be there whenever they need you. So I wrote this lil poem a while ago and just felt that it was the perfect time to put it out. Gotta love the real ones you know.

Shout out to all my real friends

not my sometimes friends

you know the ones that come around when a season ends

if you ain't there for practice and games this team don't need you

remember never bite the hand that feeds you

lets just hope that soon is when you get it together

you know before that cold ass winter weather

it gets darker and lonlier as we grow older

and trust me you don't want this cold shoulder

Signing Out ~CC the Sweety~

He wasn't good enough for me...

So I was just sitting and thinking about past relationships and why they ended. Asking questions like what could I have done different? Is it possible that we could have worked? But then I look and see we're not together so obviously not. I began to think about how me being sensitive me, would question myself as a person and being good enough for a guy. How is it that guys can make females feel so insecure that they always wonder what they did wrong or what they could have done different. They praise you and try so hard to get you but then at some point they realize that you just aren't right for them, or they just don't want to be with you, or they aren't ready for a relationship after you've been in a relationship for more than 6 months already smh. They have this weird way of handling relationships and it always seems to be the wrong way. Well anyway I was inspired to write something. It's just a little something nothing big.

you were never good for me and I finally see that

i was just something for you to concur then step out

taking that trip to your ex-girl house

i don't know why i gave you a chance

cuz i didn't even think twice at the first glance

there was something that pulled me in

maybe god teaching me a lesson

but at the end of the day I'm happy with every blessing

You were never good for me I finally see

Breezy season poppin' got boyfriend #1, 2, maybe even 3

LMAO hope that made someone smile cuz it sure made me laugh a little

Live~Laugh~& Love ur life!! CC

"People of the Recession"

So for about the past month or so I have been looking for a job. I can honestly say that everyday with the exception of a few I have sent my resume to companies and filled out applications. I had begun feeling sorry for myself and then I happened to catch an episode of Oprah today. Normally I would just change the channel(Oprah's good I guess but not for me) but this particular episode pulled me in. The title of the show I believe was the people of the recession (don't quote me on that). But in this episode they showed women with 3 children who became homeless after she and her husband both lost their jobs. There was also a single mother of two who was facing eviction and had been out of work for two years. Then there were the people who lived in what they call tent cities because they had no other place to live.
As I watched this show I began to feel guilty and selfish for feeling the way I did about not having a job. After watching this episode I became grateful for all of the things that I do have. I may not have a job or the perfect meal everyday but I do have more than some people and I am happy for that. So today I decided to stop feeling bad and to dive into my job search head first and not to come out until I have found something. In the mean time I will continue to be thankful for all I do have and pray for others less fortunate.

Signing out~ CC

Letter to my past

People will never understand why I can’t let you go. Although you are my past without you my present or future would not exist. See people insist that I let go but holding on makes me who I am…Don’t want to be left with what ifs so I keep you close to fall back on. From my birth to today I hold every second, minute, hour, day, week, month, and year if I let go losing out is my fear. I have become a hoarder of memories. These memories have become my protection from what the future brings. When things get scary or too hard I return to them to remind me that happiness and stability is not impossible. Some times are harder than others but what I have already experienced no one can take away so with that I just hope and pray for a brighter day…Get it? My past is my future…happiness in a different form.

CLASS OF 2009

So yesterday at 10 am I went through the physical ceremony of graduation from the University of Hartford's College of Arts and Sciences/School of Communication. Unlike most of my fellow graduates though I sat at graduation knowing that my journey was not over and the ceremony was just a symbol of what is to come for. You see I still have 2 classes to complete before I actually get my degree. I sat at graduation with a slight sense of dissapointment but also a sense of pride because although I'm not finished along with many I want to further my education and I am proud that I've made it this far. Where I come from there are not a lot of people who go to college. I will be the first of my family since my grandmother to recieve a degree and I have been doing this on my own. I haven't been the ideal student and although I have had some financial help...I've done most of it on my own. There are many who didn't make it through all four years and there are many who have. Some for financial reasons, some for other reasons but me...I did not and will not give up. Along the way I've learned a lot about myself and the world and the learning won't end here.

I encourage all people to educate themselve's and do not let any obstacle be too difficult that they let it overcome them instead of them overcoming it. The world is full of oppurtunities and it is up to you to take advantage of them.

CONGRATULATIONS CLASS OF 2009!! The class with class and creativity!!

Much Love *CC the Sweety*

Argument?? Who said that??

So the other day I had to ask a question. Why is that when a girl tries to talk to a guy about how either one of them feel she has to be trying to start an argument?? Now this question stems from many different situations with myself as well as experience from my female friends.

I even posted the question on my facebook and oddly enough...what a surprise the only real reasonable comments I got were from females. Of course they understood where I was coming from as a female.

I will say this though. I got a lot of "insight" from some special guys (shout out to Keith, Jack, and Omar). They explained to me that guys have to be mad sometimes for a while with out talking. Also that guys expect us to know when we are put in the highest position because of the way they treat us and who we meet(mom, dad, best friends etc.) but they're probably still gonna cheat. A lot of things they said were interesting as well as double standards.

One thing I did not like and has continued to play in my mind is that us women need to "play our role".

So my new question is...what does it mean for a woman to "play her role"?

I mean last time I checked the primitive years were over and so were the 50's and we've had the feminist movement. Women do the same jobs today that men do and sometimes do it better...so any answers??

Hated?? Admired?? I think not...

Ok so today I had a conversation with a friend about people who throw out the word hater as much if not more than how much they change their unmentionables(that's underwear). It began to sit heavy on my mind after I saw the status of one of those people when I got home. It really annoys me to see it to the point where I've thought of deleting people from my facebook and myspace because of it. They go on these rants about how much people want to be like them and hate on what they have because they don't have lives. Yet these same people seem to find more than enough time to talk about those people who supposedly are thinking about them all the time.

What I think a hater is:

Hater /hayt-er/n. someone who finds it in themselves to dislike another person for no particular reason. (hate usually stems from some type of jealousy)

Now what some people don't understand is that sometimes people just don't like a specific thing about you. That does not mean they are hating on you. What these specific people fail to realize is that they are putting so much time and energy into pointing out their so called haters that they make themselves look bad. A lot of the time they are creating these stories anyway just to make themselves feel better when people don't like them. Also if a significant amount of people don't like you...most likely it's not a case of haters but there's something wrong with YOU!

Also just because someone does something you have done doesn't mean they are trying to be like you. People try to be individuals but at some point you are going to have something in common with others. Stop trying to pretend like your the only person in the world that says a word, wears a pair of sneakers, or performs a particular action. EVERYONE DOES SOMETHING THAT SOMEONE ELSE DOES!! It's inevitable.

On that note I am going to stop here...i think I've said enough...

Until next time...giving you a taste of Sweet honesty...

~CC