Friend or Foe

So today I was home bored and when I get bored I tend to think about a lot(especially when things aren't going so great). After texting some people and other's hitting me up just to check on me I realized that I have a lot of people in my life who really care for me and have my back. Now there are also some who could care less about me and how I'm doing but tend to pretend they do and play the victim when you stop calling and testing for a while. Not to mention they expect you to be there whenever they need you. So I wrote this lil poem a while ago and just felt that it was the perfect time to put it out. Gotta love the real ones you know.

Shout out to all my real friends

not my sometimes friends

you know the ones that come around when a season ends

if you ain't there for practice and games this team don't need you

remember never bite the hand that feeds you

lets just hope that soon is when you get it together

you know before that cold ass winter weather

it gets darker and lonlier as we grow older

and trust me you don't want this cold shoulder

Signing Out ~CC the Sweety~

He wasn't good enough for me...

So I was just sitting and thinking about past relationships and why they ended. Asking questions like what could I have done different? Is it possible that we could have worked? But then I look and see we're not together so obviously not. I began to think about how me being sensitive me, would question myself as a person and being good enough for a guy. How is it that guys can make females feel so insecure that they always wonder what they did wrong or what they could have done different. They praise you and try so hard to get you but then at some point they realize that you just aren't right for them, or they just don't want to be with you, or they aren't ready for a relationship after you've been in a relationship for more than 6 months already smh. They have this weird way of handling relationships and it always seems to be the wrong way. Well anyway I was inspired to write something. It's just a little something nothing big.

you were never good for me and I finally see that

i was just something for you to concur then step out

taking that trip to your ex-girl house

i don't know why i gave you a chance

cuz i didn't even think twice at the first glance

there was something that pulled me in

maybe god teaching me a lesson

but at the end of the day I'm happy with every blessing

You were never good for me I finally see

Breezy season poppin' got boyfriend #1, 2, maybe even 3

LMAO hope that made someone smile cuz it sure made me laugh a little

Live~Laugh~& Love ur life!! CC

Letter to my past

People will never understand why I can’t let you go. Although you are my past without you my present or future would not exist. See people insist that I let go but holding on makes me who I am…Don’t want to be left with what ifs so I keep you close to fall back on. From my birth to today I hold every second, minute, hour, day, week, month, and year if I let go losing out is my fear. I have become a hoarder of memories. These memories have become my protection from what the future brings. When things get scary or too hard I return to them to remind me that happiness and stability is not impossible. Some times are harder than others but what I have already experienced no one can take away so with that I just hope and pray for a brighter day…Get it? My past is my future…happiness in a different form.